alex and ani stack.
stella and dot pearl bouquet bracelet.
Michael Kors Sandals
stella and dot on the mark necklace.
calphalon 13 piece set.
balenciaga city bag.
What’s on your current want list?
I haven’t blogged in what feels like forever, because well, I’ve been a busy girl!
So here’s a brain dump.
1. Currently I am sitting on his bed watching Father of the Bride. LOVE this movie. And love him. So it’s a total win.
2. He’s about to come in here though, so, I’m not sure if Father of the Bride will last.
3. I still love him, even if he changes my movies.
4. We are HOUSE SHOPPING.
5. And by house shopping I mean, we have our house and are putting in an offer!
6. Which means you’ll see a million posts, tweets and instagrams about moving, buying furniture and organizing the heck out of a new home!
7. Holy crap. A home. WE are going to have a home. That warms my heart more than I can explain.
8. After this I need a vacation. Preferably to somewhere warm, with a beach, and minimal people.
9. As I was typing number 8, he came in, checked what I was watching, said “Father of the Bride, oh man can we change this” and now we are watching basketball. Please refer to number 3. 
10. I am obsessed with Alex and Ani bracelets and it’s now my mission to make a perfect stack.
11. We are now watching Undercover Sting. HA. Still, refer to number 3.
12. My Mother’s Day was CRAZY amazing. He was crazy good to me. Including running to the pharmacy WAY early in the morning because I was sick!
13. We ate at The Melting Pot, it was SO yummy and so romantically fun.
Time to go hang out with my man y’all!
People who know me would say I am a stubborn person.
Sometimes I think back to last year.
I think back to the daily messages, just to say hi, that went unanswered.
I think back to the days I cried myself to sleep.
I think back to the nights I laid in bed, convinced I’d never, ever be happy again.
And look at me now.
All those tears had a purpose.
All those messages, showed someone I wasn’t willing to give up.
All those nights made me who I am today.
And today, I’m happy.
So, so, so happy.
I am so thankful for where I am today.
I am so thankful for where he is with me today.
Things are good.
Really, really good.
It’s different the second time around.
It’s different when you know what you have to lose.
I know what I want.
I know what I have to lose.
I know what it’s like to lose it.
And I know how much I don’t want that.
So things are different this time.
I always said I would fight harder.
And well, here I am.
Fighting.
Because I’ve always been here.
I’ve never, ever, ever left.
And I don’t ever plan on it.
Dear You,
Let me explain something to you.
I am a nice nice nice girl. I’ve been told I’m nice to a fault.
I put up with things and put up with things and put up with things. I deal with crap and nonsense, because, well, why not?
I make concessions for every other person in my life, besides my self. I literally am willing to be miserable, in hopes that other people are happy.
Let me tell you something.
No more nice girl.
I don’t owe you a flying thing.
Nothing. Not one. Singular. Thing.
I don’t owe you the time of the flipping day.
So I’m here to tell you a few things:
Stop telling me to get over him. Stop being pathetic and low enough to throw it IN MY FACE that I can’t get over him..when in fact..YOU CAN’T GET OVER ME.
Do. Not. Stalk. Me. Stop looking for my blog. Stop looking for my twitter. Just. Stop.
Do not tell me to move on, you move on.
Do not think you can sit here and make demands about what, when, why, and who goes on with my children. Any and all decisions are between him and I. And if you have a problem with that, frankly, I don’t know what to tell you. And I don’t care.
I have gone above and beyond what ANY other girl put in my situation would. But I’m done.
The only person I need to answer to is him. The only person I need to follow rules with, is him. The only person, going forward, that I will make any concessions for, is him.
You have NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS. So stop making it about you.
This isn’t about you.
It never has been ABOUT YOU.
Put on your big girl panties and stop thinking you run this show.
You don’t.
I don’t owe you a damn thing.
You have a problem with me? Tough shit. I don’t really like you either. But I deal with it everyday. Time for YOU to deal with it.
No more nice girl.
Love, rainbows and hugs,
Your BFF, and apparently never to be-sister wife,
Me.
P.S. You asked me if I was in your shoes if I would be okay with it? YEAH. I would. Want to know why? Because I would trust him enough to know NOTHING is happening and I would WANT HIM to be a part of his kids lives. So yeah, I’d be fine with it. Most MATURE AND RESPONSIBLE women would be.
I never went one day without trying.
Never.
I know what I want.
And I’ll fight for it.
Every day.
Because you’re worth it.
Because this is worth it.
1. I am OBSESSED with the scent Hypnotic Poison by Dior. Obsessed.
2. Also obsessed with Nars Turkish Delight lip gloss. Not obsessed with the $24 price tag. Eesh.
3. I’ve read more about cars in the past few days, than I ever have in my life. Things you do for those you love. Haha! Maybe I don’t know what a ECU is but I know ya need one!!!
4. Speaking of love. Yeah. That. Swoon.
5. Currently watching GREY’S. Love this show.
6. My oldest baby will be TWO in less than 10 days. I can barely handle this.
7. My baby baby will be ONE soon after. Let’s not even go there.
8. I ordered my Wellingtons! Classic green. I can’t wait until they come in!
9. I am in FULL party planning mode. It’s going to be A DOUBLE FIESTA PARTY! I’m so excited!! I loooove parties and I looooove themes!!!
Happy Thursday y’all!
